Wednesday

April 1, 2009

And it’s the start of a new month, a new quarter. The days have passed much quicker than I anticipated and honestly things are great. I am rebuilding my life physically, emotionally and mentally and it has been a challenging but awesome ride.

Weeks ago, topo had an entry on her blog which in turn was taken from someone else’s blog. The passage was titled “living well isn’t just about organic fruit”. I printed it off and it’s now on my sticky board at work, reminding me to live life to the fullest everyday.

I made a conscious decision to rein in my spending on material wares and instead channel the money into more experiential things. Holidays, excursions, volunteer work and other experiences that will help me discover life and make me a more fulfilled and richer person. I’ve  realised that all I have to do is allow myself to embrace opportunities and possibilities and they can be done. Just take a step out, even if it’s not within my comfort zone, and try. If I don’t try, I never know what the outcome will be. I pretty much live by this mantra now.

Also spending more quality time with family and I know more than ever I can always count on them whenever I need them.

Work has been ok, some corporate changes at the top and I was a bit disappointed when it was announced last week that there would be a general pay freeze except for junior level staff. But today I got an email from the big boss that I would be one of the few exceptions this year. So that was good to hear. I have always had a slight inferiority complex professionally because I always feel I’m not good enough compared to my peers. It’s not about the extra money, which i think won’t be much anyway, but it’s knowing that your work is appreciated and valued, and it motivates me to work harder.

Looking ahead into the next quarter, I have a few fitness goals to achieve, and quite a few holidays already being planned. Plus all the mini adventures along the way, I’m looking forward to very exciting times.

Wednesday

March 11, 2009

Citibank shares are up 15 cents to US$1.60. Whoopee-f**king-dooda

March 11, 2009
Op-Ed Columnist

This Is Not a Test. This Is Not a Test.

It’s always great to see the stock market come back from the dead. But I am deeply worried that our political system doesn’t grasp how much our financial crisis can still undermine everything we want to be as a country. Friends, this is not a test. Economically, this is the big one. This is August 1914. This is the morning after Pearl Harbor. This is 9/12. Yet, in too many ways, we seem to be playing politics as usual.

Our country has congestive heart failure. Our heart, our banking system that pumps blood to our industrial muscles, is clogged and functioning far below capacity. Nothing else remotely compares in importance to the urgent need to heal our banks.

Yet I read that we’re actually holding up dozens of key appointments at the Treasury Department because we are worried whether someone paid Social Security taxes on a nanny hired 20 years ago at $5 an hour. That’s insane. It’s as if our financial house is burning down but we won’t let the Fire Department open the hydrant until it assures us that there isn’t too much chlorine in the water. Hello?

Meanwhile, the Republican Party behaves as if it would rather see the country fail than Barack Obama succeed. Rush Limbaugh, the de facto G.O.P. boss, said so explicitly, prompting John McCain to declare about President Obama to Politico: “I don’t want him to fail in his mission of restoring our economy.” The G.O.P. is actually debating whether it wants our president to fail. Rather than help the president make the hard calls, the G.O.P. has opted for cat calls. It would be as if on the morning after 9/11, Democrats said they wanted no part of any war against Al Qaeda — “George Bush, you’re on your own.”

As for President Obama, I like his coolness under fire, yet sometimes it feels as if he is deliberately keeping his distance from the banking crisis, while pressing ahead on other popular initiatives. I understand that he doesn’t want his presidency to be held hostage to the ups and downs of bank stocks, but a hostage he is. We all are.

Great and difficult crises are what produce great presidents, so one thing we know for sure: Mr. Obama’s going to have his shot at greatness. This crisis is uniquely difficult in four respects.

First, to get out of a crisis like this you need to let markets clear. You need to let failed companies, or homeowners, go bankrupt, unlock their dead capital and reapply it to thriving entities. That is how the dot-com bust ended, and out of that carnage emerged a whole new set of companies. The problem with this crisis is that A.I.G., Citigroup and General Motors — and your neighbor’s subprime mortgage — are not Dogfood.com. You let the market clear them away, and we could all be wiped out with them. Therefore, the president has to find a way to punish bad financial actors without setting off another Lehman Brothers domino effect.

Second, we need to get a market going that would bring fair value and clarity to the “toxic mortgages” crippling the balance sheets of our major banks. This will likely require some degree of government subsidy to private equity groups and hedge funds to get them to make the first bids for these toxic assets by guaranteeing they will not lose. This could make great policy sense, but be a nightmare to sell politically. It will strike many as another unfair giveaway to Wall Street.

Unfortunately, the president may have to look the American people in the eye and explain that “fairness is not on the menu anymore.” All that’s on the menu now is whether or not we avoid a system meltdown — and this will require rewarding some new investors.

Third, the president may have to make some trillion-dollar decisions — like nationalizing major banks or doubling the economic stimulus — with no real precedent and without knowing all the long-term ramifications.

Finally, to do all this, the president has to make us realize how dangerous a moment we’re in, without creating a panic that will prompt Americans to put every dime in their mattresses and undermine the economy even more.

All this will require leadership of the highest order — bold decisions, persistence and persuasion. There is a huge amount of money on the sidelines eager to bet again on America. But right now, there is too much uncertainty; no one knows what will be the new rules governing investments in our biggest financial institutions. If President Obama can produce and sell that plan, private investors, big and small, will give us a stimulus like you’ve never seen.

Which is why I wake up every morning hoping to read this story: “President Obama announced today that he had invited the country’s 20 leading bankers, 20 leading industrialists, 20 top market economists and the Democratic and Republican leaders in the House and Senate to join him and his team at Camp David. ‘We will not come down from the mountain until we have forged a common, transparent strategy for getting us out of this banking crisis,’ the president said, as he boarded his helicopter.”

Copyright 2009 The New York Times Company

Thursday

November 20, 2008

I’m having a very unfocused day. When I should really be working on stuff I have to do ie something on oil sector reforms in china, I keep drifting off to one thing or another that’s totally unrelated, like behind-the-election-scenes on Newsweek, or reading people’s blogs. I also keep revisiting Outblush to look at the things over and over again — there’s a dress from Victoria’s Secret that is supposed to be really amazing because it can be worn seven ways, although I bet it only works seven ways on tall and skinny people.

I need a new job that inspires me, with better benefits and where people will take me more seriously. If I was smarter and more talkative maybe i would be somewhere else. Oh wait, I did get a new job but they couldn’t hire me because of this little economic crisis and something known as a recruitment freeze.

I also keep thinking about my money and whether Citigroup’s going to crash. I got a shock when I saw this morning that the stock closed at a piddlesome $6.40 and they shut down some underperforming hedge fund and decided to purchase some of those remaining SIV loans. It is quite ridiculous that I bought Citi at $28 and $21 and tomorrow, who knows, it might all be worth nothing. I mean, how low can it drop?

I have decided to be more conscientious about learning songs, so I’ve uploaded all the available repertoire on my ipod and put it in a special Korea playlist. Trouble is I usually skip the horrible sounding ones like Pamugun and ave maria, and put eric whitacre on repeat instead. Listening to Hana on repeat is not great because the choir is sharp by the end and it just keeps on looping back to the original key, where the sops are also flat anyway.

as the midnight watch tower tolls

over rooftop street and dome

the triumph of a human being ascending

in the dreaming of a mortal man

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